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I'm Zoe Mariner and I'm currently studying in KTJail and enjoying life there. I'm 18 this year and I believe in freedom of speech and hence this blog will speak out my thoughts and opinions. so if you got a problem with that - back out. just kidding! HAVE FUN and feel free to leave a tag so i know you've been here. xoxo you know you love me.
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Sunday, December 6, 2009 6:49 PM
Good bye
This is my last chance to use the internet for the next couple of days.
Thanks for keeping up with it.
Sayonara - I'm off to Johor Bharu and I'm not coming back to Kota Kinabalu!! It has indeed been a good time here, slightly boring but nevertheless, I will miss the church here. And the kind and caring people who love God. Thank you Jesus for your blessings.
xoxo
zoe
Thanks for keeping up with it.
Sayonara - I'm off to Johor Bharu and I'm not coming back to Kota Kinabalu!! It has indeed been a good time here, slightly boring but nevertheless, I will miss the church here. And the kind and caring people who love God. Thank you Jesus for your blessings.
xoxo
zoe
1:47 AM
Romance says "i want it now", wisdom urges patience.
Romance says, "this is what i want and it's good for me". wisdom leads us to consider what is best for the other person.
Romance says, "enjoy the fantasy". wisdom calls us to base our emotions and perceptions in reality.
Boy Meets Girl - Joshua Harris
Romance says, "this is what i want and it's good for me". wisdom leads us to consider what is best for the other person.
Romance says, "enjoy the fantasy". wisdom calls us to base our emotions and perceptions in reality.
Boy Meets Girl - Joshua Harris
12:47 AM
The Third Letter for Australia
Dear Kimmy, I hope you're reading these letters - it had better be worth it!!
Last night I joined Mum and Dad and we went for dinner at another Englishman's house. It was 4km into the interior (jungle) and 20 minutes up a dirt road to the top of a hill. The house is absolutely mesmerising. It's gorgeous. It is tall and big (3 floors) wooden beams, brick walls, glass walls, spiral staircases, wooden floor, swimming pool, wooden patio, tastefully decorated interior... it was Western. I fell in love with it. I fell in love with the whole feeling of it... so ang-mo. oh, they have 13 dogs. most are big and burly. some pure white and two pure black. they swarmed around me but thank God i'm used to dogs so i was exceptionally calm. i patted them. so cute!!
i know you love dogs.
i know that you're even scared of puppies.
anyway - back to the major theme - the house was brilliant. seriuosly kim, i have to have a wooden house - brick walls - western taste... it's simply the best. i think you'd know what i mean - since you're leaving in the west although geograpically it's located in the south!!! in the house (which is used as lodgings as well), i went to the toilet and guess what sign did they put up there? this:
"All our guests make us happy; some by leaving and some by going."
During dinner, there were 3 other englishmen excluding my dad and their Asian wives. my goodness, when they say that Brits speak with sarcasm and wit, i'd never really seen it in action until that night. sarcastic remarks to the max - but full of humour and meant to poke fun. crazy. this is what i'm getting myself in for next year! i can't wait. i'm really excited about going to England. where my other half is, the Brit in me. i hope she awakens.
guess what book did i pick up in church today? i bought it for RM 44.50
"boy meets girl" by Joshua Harris. to give you an idea as to what it is about; i'll type out what is written on its back cover:
"If you're fed up with self-centred relationships that end in disillusionment, it's time to rethink romance. Finding the loving, committed relaionship you want shouldn't mean throwing away your hopes, your integrity or your heart.
In Boy Meets Girl, Joshua Harris - who kissed dating goodbye- makes the case for courtship. as old fashioned as it might sound, courtship is what modern-day relationships desperately need. Think of it as a romance chaperoned by wisdom, cared for by the community, and directed by God' Word. Keep God at the centre of your relationship as you discover how to."
please don't be affronted - i'm not saying anything about your relationship. it's just i think it could apply to me at this point. he asked some really thought provoking questions in the book:
1) is starting this relationship now what's best for him?
2) will expressing all my feelings now serve her?
3) are my actions encouraging him to love God more?
4) am i communicating clearly and in a way that helps her?
5) does the way i dress encourage him to have a pure thought life?
6) will kissing her be what's best for her in the long run?
2) will expressing all my feelings now serve her?
3) are my actions encouraging him to love God more?
4) am i communicating clearly and in a way that helps her?
5) does the way i dress encourage him to have a pure thought life?
6) will kissing her be what's best for her in the long run?
so many questions... so many uncertainties... i may have to rethink everything...
will call you once i get that freaking ITALK card.
xoxoxo
zoe
Saturday, December 5, 2009 12:09 AM
Friday, December 4, 2009 11:24 PM
The Second Letter for Australia
Dear Kimmy,
If there is one thing about moving house, it’s that one takes a stroll down memory lane and discovers notes, diaries, birthday cars and love letters....
You made me a splendid looking birthday card in the year 2007 – we were 16 years old. Here’s what you wrote in one page:
Through thick & thin...
Tears & joy....
Fats & bones...
We’ll always be sistas... yeah?
Remember?
Friends on EARTH
Sisters in HEAVEN!
Halleluiah! Hahaha!
Blur or not blur;
Fat or not fat...
Scary or not scary...
You’ll always be the same to me.
Love you,
Sunny fuzzy!
<3,>
I’ll be going off to Aussie very soon. Will miss all the times we spent together. Through fat or bones (lolx...) we’ll always be best friends, I don’t think we’ll ever be apart Zoe. I think we’ll still be bffs till we grow up. Distance....er....the distance between us cannot draw us apart. Hmmmm.... you know what I mean. You DO right? *hold knife to Zoe’s throat* ahaha. Have fun Zoe. Study hard for SPM, promise? You HAVE to be kiasu to survive.
After analysing this, I've come to realise that you put the word "fat" in a lot and it's comparison, "thin" "bones"... were you trying to hint or send out a powerful message?! really kim.
and more importantly, yes we are still bffs. whether you like it or not!
:)
I thought that mum would kill me this time for being fat or putting on weight but apparently I've lost weight. i believe it's the stress since i hardly exercised. oh and when i did - like play tennis with SY - it was also stressful because he bullies me now with his newfound powerful serves that he likes to smash on the court. sigh. and then he laughs when i get agitated about it. he's so cute.
I went for lunch today at a friends house and guess what was written on her shirt? These awesome words, "Explain to me again why i need a boyfriend". I thought that was so cool. that rocks. independent. i like that word. i know you like it too but i must say you seem to be having a 'fun' serious relationship with the Tepper. good for you.
as I was browsing through my stuff, i also picked up something cousin Mike left me. i think he wrote you a thank you card as well. remember those days we used to go to youth every saturday night? the songs we sang, the stuff we did, the games we played. we were so young and so fresh. so ready for the big world.
well this is what Mike wrote, i want to record it for memory sake.
Dear Cuz Zoe,
No matter what you are going through, I believe that nothing can hinder God’s wonderful plan in your life, just have to trust and receive...
You’ve always been encouraging in your own loving ways, keep that fire for God glowing, don’t let it burn out. Will miss you in the leadership but will never count you out.
Remember to pursue love and forgiveness.
Love, Michael.
that's about it for this letter. have a great day. i'll see you soon... someday.
xoxo
zoe
5:07 AM
The First Letter for Australia
Dear Kimmy,I read your blog post the other day. The one where you were justifiably upset about Sam and I. Yes, I know we haven't been the best at keeping in touch... and I have good excuses too - exams, prefect stuff, English Coursework, late night chats with someone...
I'm very sorry Kim.
And I will put it to right, starting with this post just for you. I'm lucky that I still have internet although it will only be for today because we're cutting the line as my family and I are moving to Johor Bharu on Tuesday, 8th December.
So I arrived in Kota Kinabalu today - dressed as sophistical as possible to impress my dad. Had a collared shirt, long sleeves rolled up, lipstick, eye liner, contact lenses, hair in a bun... the works of it. Dad was impressed. said I look cool. and more. you won't believe it, but I've been investing in this casual yet smart clothing like collar long sleeves for Uni in England next year, I've bought three already. One from MNG and two from PADINI, each costing me RM89. crazy yea. but I'm loving it. loving the new style.
The flight back was in an Air Bus. The sounds it made while taking off was so scary it made the plane sound like some old thing. which led me to pray extra harder just incase it exploded into tiny bits. i was asking God to forgive all my sins right away. I atleast had a friend on board with me, Jinho, son of a pastor, so i knew he'd be praying too. but when i checked with him later, he said he fell asleep. well...
i'm really impressed with your 5 day stay on the house boat. sounds like loads of fun and the pictures are making me green with envy!! knee boarding in the river?! why didn't i get an invitation?? haha
have you checked out this amazing new perfume called ROCK ME by Anna Sui? My good friend Edward, who is as eccentric as me, hence I treat him like a brother, has a sampler and gave me one. tantalising. intoxicating. check it out!!
till the next one - have a good holiday and don't be too emo!! please!
xoxo
zoe
Tuesday, December 1, 2009 3:44 AM
:(
It's nothing really...
Just that I already miss you...
Even if I don't show it.
Just that I already miss you...
Even if I don't show it.